Withdrawn Blessing
I knew from the start of my running journey, it will not be as smooth flowing as it should be. I will have to make some sacrifices like making available some time, if it's not at the end of the day, at the start, where you will need to start your day really early, when everyone is still sound asleep (at least to my family). I will have to endure the burning sun, if the workout gets too late or too early in the evening. I knew then, I would not have complete blessing from Aminsyah, not exactly sure what would be the reason but I know he will not be totally in favour with it.
So to make amends, i will always make my runs short, and to start the day early before everyone is even up. when i started running, i was without maid. Qaid and Qays were quite big that time and they would be fine once they woke up, and would require minimal supervision. And when I started to have maid again, things got better of course. Even my first run was without maid. Lucky Mus was around that time, so he just had to entertain the kids until we reach home. And we will always strive to reach home as early as possible. When it comes to leaving for races, I will always try to make sure that we'll leave as later as possible. JIT is the main principle for my survival, in order to maximise my time at home with the kids. I don't have that much luxury of time to hang around at the race area before and after the race finishes. I won't even have time to join running groups, for fear that it will consume a lot of time, in order to join their trainings. Having regular running session with running buddies always seem so nice, but it's something that I really cannot afford. Those are my shortcomings, but despite all that, I still have running close to my heart. Support system wise, what I have is already quite weak. The best that i have is only due to the fact that I have a maid, and a husband who's willing to join races with me. I truly envy those who are able to be more actively involved in their running. as for me, it's mostly on my mind, my readings, my social network, the blogs that i visit and Runner's World. I run weekdays alone, LSD alone, everything alone. Other people might have their weekend long runs with running buddies, have people for them to talk about tempos, fartleks, intervals, LSD, paces, heart rate, strength training, planks etc etc to, but definitely dont. Now I am able to a little bit through some WhatsApp group, but that is all.
But come year 2 of our running journey, Aminsyah has started to lose interest. And maybe it is partly due to the amount of money that needs to be invested. This year alone, the fees has summed up to 400 ish, for me alone, and I have not joined a lot of races this year (delivered a baby, confinement, getting back on track after confinement and having smaller baby, which makes it even more difficult for me to be away from home unless it's really necessary). I am more picky about races this year.
After SCKLM, I felt more comfortable running longer distances, and I think maybe it's time for me to do a Full Marathon. I knew from before that i will flat at 15km, without fuel. so last weekend's run, I had to stop midway and helped myself with a bottle of 100 plus. and I had to run with it. definitely there's the handheld bottle option, so holding your 100 plus bottle, is very much similar to the handheld bottle option. So when I went to the BSN PNM racekit collection day, the 2XU booth was open and I was contemplating to buy the handheld bottle option. A lady came up and suggested i might as well buy the 2 bottles option instead. Since I am targetting to use it for FM trainings, I think her suggestion made sense and i have committed myself to the Nathan Speed 2 hydration bottle. Speed 2 particularly cos it had the most discount and it comes in pink.
And Aminsyah only knew it through my Insta update about the kids trying out my new belt, and little did i know that he was not particularly happy with it. Also whenever he sees that I'm a bit engrossed with running related stuff on my phone and ipad.
I knew from the start that he would not be too happy with this interest of mine. but with the Garmin prezzie that he gave, i took it as a sign of blessing (this was my exact words when i got it). Apparently it was just short lived and the blessing is now officially withdrawn. Now, training for Full Marathon has officially become more difficult. Not physically, but emotionally. The already weak support system has got even weaker than before.
So to make amends, i will always make my runs short, and to start the day early before everyone is even up. when i started running, i was without maid. Qaid and Qays were quite big that time and they would be fine once they woke up, and would require minimal supervision. And when I started to have maid again, things got better of course. Even my first run was without maid. Lucky Mus was around that time, so he just had to entertain the kids until we reach home. And we will always strive to reach home as early as possible. When it comes to leaving for races, I will always try to make sure that we'll leave as later as possible. JIT is the main principle for my survival, in order to maximise my time at home with the kids. I don't have that much luxury of time to hang around at the race area before and after the race finishes. I won't even have time to join running groups, for fear that it will consume a lot of time, in order to join their trainings. Having regular running session with running buddies always seem so nice, but it's something that I really cannot afford. Those are my shortcomings, but despite all that, I still have running close to my heart. Support system wise, what I have is already quite weak. The best that i have is only due to the fact that I have a maid, and a husband who's willing to join races with me. I truly envy those who are able to be more actively involved in their running. as for me, it's mostly on my mind, my readings, my social network, the blogs that i visit and Runner's World. I run weekdays alone, LSD alone, everything alone. Other people might have their weekend long runs with running buddies, have people for them to talk about tempos, fartleks, intervals, LSD, paces, heart rate, strength training, planks etc etc to, but definitely dont. Now I am able to a little bit through some WhatsApp group, but that is all.
But come year 2 of our running journey, Aminsyah has started to lose interest. And maybe it is partly due to the amount of money that needs to be invested. This year alone, the fees has summed up to 400 ish, for me alone, and I have not joined a lot of races this year (delivered a baby, confinement, getting back on track after confinement and having smaller baby, which makes it even more difficult for me to be away from home unless it's really necessary). I am more picky about races this year.
After SCKLM, I felt more comfortable running longer distances, and I think maybe it's time for me to do a Full Marathon. I knew from before that i will flat at 15km, without fuel. so last weekend's run, I had to stop midway and helped myself with a bottle of 100 plus. and I had to run with it. definitely there's the handheld bottle option, so holding your 100 plus bottle, is very much similar to the handheld bottle option. So when I went to the BSN PNM racekit collection day, the 2XU booth was open and I was contemplating to buy the handheld bottle option. A lady came up and suggested i might as well buy the 2 bottles option instead. Since I am targetting to use it for FM trainings, I think her suggestion made sense and i have committed myself to the Nathan Speed 2 hydration bottle. Speed 2 particularly cos it had the most discount and it comes in pink.
And Aminsyah only knew it through my Insta update about the kids trying out my new belt, and little did i know that he was not particularly happy with it. Also whenever he sees that I'm a bit engrossed with running related stuff on my phone and ipad.
I knew from the start that he would not be too happy with this interest of mine. but with the Garmin prezzie that he gave, i took it as a sign of blessing (this was my exact words when i got it). Apparently it was just short lived and the blessing is now officially withdrawn. Now, training for Full Marathon has officially become more difficult. Not physically, but emotionally. The already weak support system has got even weaker than before.
Ina, I have been through this and actually still going through it. That comment you saw on my latest blog entry...well I've mentioned there on why I was so surprised by it huhu. My support system for this past year is actually not as strong as before. And I too do lots of *running* stuff alone. Susah nya rasa kdg2 kan. But you, at least you have your terrific finishing time to compensate with all that. I am still not so fast huhu
ReplyDeleteIf there's a like button, I would like your comment many times. Not that I'm happy for other people's shortcoming, but finally, there's someone who I can totally relate to... I can see that you have much passion in running as much...kalu sampai sanggup do your running stuff alone, trains nightly despite your bz schedule...i know, being a SAHM sometimes is even busier than a working mom...so totally salute u...hope both of us can remain passionate and be in this journey for as long as we can
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